I went to the For King & Country Little Drummer Boy concert in December with a couple of my best friends and it was one of the best concerts I’ve ever been to. They played more music than I’ve ever heard a band play and the amount of musical instruments that were played was phenomenal.
They had recently released their new Burn the Ships CD, although I hadn’t listened to the song. The first time I had heard Burn the Ships was at the concert and I immediately loved it. I honestly don’t know what it was that made me so drawn to it.
Joel & Luke Smallbone are the lead singers, originally from Australia and recently US citizens. They shared much of their story, trials and testimonies at the concert. Luke shared the inspiration behind the song and why it was important for him and his family to burn the ships. I won’t share his story (you can Google it if you’re really curious!), but I will share mine.
[This is exactly what I had typed up and read to our church. I am terrified of public speaking and definitely can’t speak without a script. There’s something about hiding behind a piece of paper of written letters and words that makes it a little easier.]
I had posted the song Burn the Ships on social media after my friends and I went to the For King & Country Christmas concert in Des Moines. Michele knew my love for this song and had asked me if I could mention what the song meant to me. It truly means so many things. It really is the perfect New Year song. The New Year means allowing you to burn the ships of your mistakes and failure from the prior year. It means a new start and a new goal that hopefully we all achieve. I thought I could elaborate on its relevance to the new year but felt in my heart what it really mean to me.
*Side note: When Derek asked if I’d be able to do this and not cry I told him I could. I was wrong, but he definitely took me to McDonald’s that evening. Something about that two cheeseburger meal can heal your soul.
14 years ago there was a man who had a lack of judgment and pulled out in front of my family on the four lane. A semi then hit us from behind and left me fatherless as a 15 year old. My brother, one of my best friends in life, was left a quadriplegic. Burning the ships..it means letting go of something that has bothered you for days, months and years. It means forgiving people who have wronged you, no matter how much damage it’s done. More importantly it means forgiving God and instead putting trust where your anger in Him is.
The jealousy erupts when I see fathers and daughters, the fear explodes every time I or someone I love gets in a vehicle and I find myself mourning the loss of my prior life. Burning the ships to me means letting go of your fears, anger, jealousy, frustration and questions of why, and instead trusting in God that His plan for all of us is more than we could ever comprehend.I can’t imagine not being here, not being with my husband or having our three little boys. The amount of birthdays and celebrations I would have missed if I stopped living makes my stomach turn.
I understand that to live fully we have to let go of the burdens in our life. Burning the ships means forgiving someone I’ve never been able to forgive for almost half of my time here on earth. I’m ready to give my burden to God and burn the ships in my life. I pray that everyone here chooses to burn the ships in their life: the burdens, fears, and anger. Burn the ships, and don’t you look back.
Click here for the song & music video by For King & Country.
Sending all my love and prayers to anyone who is struggling burning the ships in their life.